Finding a little peace… February 7, 2007
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I think – and I say think because I’m not sure of anything these days – that I’m finally coming to a place of peace over what’s going on in my family (i.e. my mother). No, I don’t want her to die. I want her to be here for at least another 20 years so we can bicker and laugh together. But seeing her so sick, and so depressed, bitter, and angry makes me think maybe she’ll find some peace. I like to believe there’s another world besides the physical one. I’ve pretty much always believed in some way or another – depending on my religious or spiritual stance at the time – that the soul continues. Maybe life continues in a different form. There are so many theories, such as reincarnation, parallel lives, the string theory, etc., that I just cannot believe our souls die when we leave our physical bodies. Perhaps she’ll find some peace in another form of life. I certainly hope so. And I certainly believe I’ll see her again.
I’ve tried to stop flipping out over everything. My getting more stressed doesn’t help the situation. I’ve also been trying to find some time for myself, too, so I don’t meltdown again. It’s not always easy. Meditation would really help right now, but I’ve got monkey brain. I need to find some more time to write in here, but it’s difficult. There’s just so many things going on.
Arrrgggghhhhh!!!!
Life after death….it has meaning for those dying and those coping with it. It’s important that you remember to take care of yourself in these difficult times.